Ganbatte Na-chan!

Well, I have admittedly missed a couple of days in blogging, but it's ok. I have an excuse - & a valid 1!

 

I've got exams right now...for the whole bloody week! I don't want them! Someone wish them away for me!

 

Anyway, just to update you from last Tuesday, I never said how my karate gradings went! I'm glad 2 announce that I went up a full belt -right up 2 green belt! Ureshiyo! *applause* Thank you! Thank you! Concerning karate, tomorrow is my last day for the season - technically Thursday is the last day of the season, but only my sis will b attending, cause I have a babysitting job which can earn me holiday money! I'm really gonna miss karate >.< i love it so much. It's good exercise, good people, fun times, serious discipline, & lots of laughs & fun. I don't want it to stop or take a break, but i suppose the black belts have worked hard this season, so they deserve one. *takes hat off to them* I'll still keep practicing in the holidays, & keep fit & get up 2 brown belt the next time i go back! Ya! Ganbatte me!

 

Also, the biggest thing that's probably happened to me this week is the fact that we've found another house! yay! even if it is only another rental property, & requires a lil excess storage (dad bought a really big & good clothes cupboard off ebay 4 $10!!! WTF dad?! what a good deal tho...), the rooms are bigger, meaning i can fit more, the ceilings are higher, meaning cooler temperatures & more ventilation, & wooden floors! Less mess from the dog! yay! *sorry tigger >.< we love you!*

 

In the midst of exams right now, I have corrected everyone's english advanced essays...all except MINE!! I haven't even started mine, & it's due 2morro! but i suppose i am the last minute queen, & I usually get high marks despite last minute scrambling, so i will have faith in tonight :D

 

I have to drop my sister 2 piano 2day. On the bus Georgie & Jesse Solomon & I were all having a losers celebration - what we were celebrating only god knows...ah! that's right...Georgie's last piano lesson @ her piano tutor who she's had 4 ten years, & who my sister now goes 2. So yeah... I got photos which i might post up l8er.

 

Listening to Otsuka Ai 2 much i think...her songs r starting 2 rub off on the way I play piano...4 those who don't know, I've put one of her instrumental tracks in the background of this space - one of my fav songs, but im beginning 2 get sick of it now. The video clip is sad, but pointless...as i've just realised...lol aww well. I love her a lot...but i will get sick of her 1 day i suppose...

 

It looks like rain...i think i'll carry an umbrella wen taking jess to piano...

 

umbrella...hmm...who invented that word?!

Here's a test I did. I find it a lil inaccurate but still lol worthy. Chek it out @ http://www.seductiveshorts.com/ 

 

 

 BTW. Wish me luck 4 karate gradings 2night! Hope i can get up 2 green belt >.<

hmph.

 

House got sold on Saturday.

 

Yup.

 

The house that I've lived in for 5 years

The house I've spent the most years in

The house I've learnt both to love & hate (those f**king creaking stairs >.<)

 

...has just been sold.

 

Great. So much for a fresh start.

 

In simple terms, it got sold to a fat emotional lady who became emotionally attached to the house 2 days before the auction & decided she wanted to buy it then & there, while jumping on the creaking stairs & breaking them, & then upon winning the auction (which she only won by going $10000 over her limit) threw herself in an ecstatic fit upon one of our dining room chairs which went CRACK under her tremendous weight while she laughed at the whole scenario.

 

Dad was not happy.

 

Neither was I for that matter, & I still am not. We were originally told that we only needed to move by mid-January, which still holds true, except that the fat lady wants 2 move in as soon as possible; having no consideration for the people currently living in the house (AKA us) & that if she wants us 2 move in 3 weeks she'd be ruining our Christmas.

 

But do you really think the fat lady cares if she ruins Christmas? She's fat enough 2 challenge Santa! I can just picture her on her sled yelling "Ho! Ho! Ho!" before the sled slowly cracks under her enormous weight & gives way, where she falls from the sky & accidently gets stuck in someone's chimney for eternity, while the owners of THAT house wonder why their ventilation system doesn't work, & why their fire place always smells of burnt butt.

 

& that would have been the second house she'd ruined.

 

lol sorry. I just hate her even more for asking 'Does the dog come with the house?' of course i seriously replied a dead-flat 'No.' & immediately picked Tigger up before running out of the fat lady's sight.

 

*sigh* Now i realise that ext 2 excursion is on Wednesday, & Im a lil pissed considering the day will practically b worthless, judging by the last excursion. I'm sure Anna agrees with me when I say that we shouldn't be wasting our time, but because of attendance, I think we'll agree that we HAVE to go. I'm dragging anna along for the record, & I'll make Amisha & Syera drag her 2 if she goes unwillingly. Sorry Anna. You have no choice. If we go, you go! lol

 

Our exams r nxt week guys! zomg...*runs off 2 type up study notes* I think im most worried about english ext 1, & ancient history, & maths, &...f**k it. I'm worried about the whole goddamn thing!

 

Ah well. Gtg shower. Here's another fun photoshop moment, starring Georgie Potter, Sumedha Granger, & Natalie Weasley.

 

Please tell me it's funny. Cause I know it's not.

 

Good morning

 

haha my family woke me up @ 6 - even they dunno y... they gave me pressies:

~ school bag (thnx mum)

~ POTC 2 DVD (thnx Jess)

~ 2 Haruki Murakami books (Norweigen Wood, The Wind up Bird Chronicle ---> thnx dad)

~ shoes - sandals to be exact, nice ones (thnx mum)

~ new metronome 4 piano that i've had my eyes on 4 sum time (thnx dad)

~ pair of pants (even though they're pink, i think surprisingly they look ok, but then nothing looks ok on me so it doesn't matter )

~ new SeaFolley bikini (thnx 2 all of them)

 

So thanx family! i luv u! even tho 1/2 these pressies were unexpected, I'll still treasure them & remember u everytime i use them - except the Haruki Murakami books...that would b weird...dad saw the covers & was like...'Why do you want them?'...I was like, "I just do. Why?" - "Because...they seem a little...grown up..." - "YOu do know I'm turning 16 right?" lol

 

We shall c wen we get 2 school. A lil nervous cause I wanna practice piano more b4 assembly. But still. I just wanna enjoy this day w/ anna & friends, so I wanna make the most of everything, even if i do make a drama about turning 16, too late now.

 

2night they plan 2 take me 2 a Teppanyaki place in Surrey Hills - Japanese food! Yay! Nana's coming over in the evening &...*ahem*...will be joining us...haha sok sok. I luv my grandma a lot 2. Just spoke 2 her on the phone, & she was like "Do you feel old yet?" lol

 

I'll probably end up bloggin in the evening 2 complete the entry 4 this special day, so, guys, Happy Birthday 2 me!

 

*goes off & whistles the pathetic tune, trying 2 figure who could've come up with such a ridiculous song...*

 

 

Owahhh~ my grandmother came over 2day this evening. She gave me $50 which i told mum 2 deposit in2 my bank account - geez...im turning in2 such a good girl... we all went 2 a Japanese restaurant - ended up not being Teppanyaki but it was still fantastic. Every1 luved it. Although afterwards I started feeling really sick when i got home - not the food, but the wrong time of the month I think. I crashed in the living room, while every1 retired upstairs 2 bed. I began reading 'The Wind-up Bird Chronicle' book by Harumi Murakami which was given 2 me & began loving his writing style even more. Mum came down & kissed my head, saying we should put a stop 2 all our fighting & be happy from now on, whatever happens. After she went upstairs, I thought about it for a little while. I wasn't emotionally moved to the point of tears, but despite my thoughts that the day hadn't been particularly birthday-like or monumental, it was possibly the most important birthday I had experienced, & the fact that my mum had said such a thing marked the beginning of a new, restarted life. I feel refreshed.

 

My dad also finished cleaning up for the next day, because my house was going 2 b auctioned on the Saturday. He kissed me goodnight, & said he was so happy that he'd had kids like Jess & me, & he didnt' want me any different or to change who I was, because that made me...me. I crashed on the matress downstairs, & thought about them both, & couldn't help but think about how lucky I was, despite being one of the most unlucky people in the world. Nearly every week of my life, something monumentally drastic would go wrong, but 2 make up for such times, I have the greatest presents of all. A beautiful family, who love me for who I am & who I can depend on for support & support myself at the same time; people who I can love & not fear not being loved in return.

 

I am truly...happy.

*sigh* stupid. stupid stupid.

 

2morro being mine & anna's b'day, there's a lot of tension about presents & cakes as I can see. I've counted 3 cakes for tomorrow, not 2 mention 1 I get on Sunday, cause some cousins & close friends r coming over & celebrating. How fat am I going 2 get?! just when I wanted 2 eat healthy..tut tut nat...

 

On Saturday my house gets sold - or rather auctioned. 10am precisely. I don't care what happens really. My bedroom window overlooks the whole street, where the auction is going 2 take place, so I'll just sit here blogging on Saturday posting the results of the auction. I hope it goes 2 an investor, meaning we won't have 2 move & saves us all the trouble. Although, I also want a personal buyer 2 get it, cause I don't want 2 live in this hole of a house anymore. I don't understand y people want 2 buy it. There r so many problems with it! Ah well...they haven't been living in the house 4 the past 6 years, so I'll excuse them

 

2morro is also the Yr 11 assembly - us. Unfortunately, I'm playing 3 things now - walking-in-music, the school song, & a solo piece [a choice out of 2 Chopin pieces]. I mean, it's my bday, & i have 2 play 4 an assembly! meaning practice 2night, & in the morn w/ Chelsea, who's gonna sing the school song. @ least she's only got 2 - her solo & the SS, but shucks...me doing 3? --->>haha that rhymed ^.^

 

im waitin 2 c wut other peepz hav got me, cause usually im in on all the things being bought 4 other peepz, & now that I'm outside of that box I feel left out >.< but i suppose it is my bday as well as anna's, so they want 2 surprise us...

 

I haven't eaten ANYTHING 2day. I only had a cup of milk for breakfast, & I haven't eaten since. The strange thing is that i don't feel hungry. Wonder y...but i like this. Im fed up with being hungry all the time & caving into food-pressure (like peer pressure, except from food...) I don't want 2 starve myself, but I don't want 2 force my body 2 eat if it doesn't feel like it right now.

 

*sigh* karate 2night. Last lesson b4 gradings *kowaii/scary!* I really have 2 practice hard if i want 2 get 2 the nxt belt. I started harder training yesterday night, straight after a full day of school & tutoring, but i felt so good afterwards. My punches r really good. My kicks...getting better...my stances could b better, but they're good...& my kiyaii! is totally whack...but i can't change that... let's c how i go 2night, seeing as last time I was really sick during the session. Although, 2day I was pretty sick w/ period @ school, so i wonder how it'll turn out...

 

Awell...i plan 2 call anna really late & wish her happy birthday  I know she won't be pleased 2 have me call so late - or perhaps early, I can't b sure - but still. It's my 16th. I want 2 wish her 1st lol beat her 2 it.

 

Goodnight & goodbye. This is the last day I have of youth. 2morro, wish me well, for it will be gone

 

Forever

 

 

ahhhh~ 2day was majorly a school day. SO WHAT?!

 

I took anna's subtle yet effective advice, & I refuse 2 bitch about people online anymore - or most places in fact. I don usually like bitching, but if i lose my cool & wanna get bak @ sum1, I sometimes fly off the handle, & that's wen peepz like anna come & ground u & u take a step back b4 thinking "U loser...That was a really f***ed up thing 2 do."

 

...except 4 this...

 

ARG! I don't want 2 hold a particular grudge against this teacher or anything, but i'm still pissed off @ her! For no particular reason whatsoever, in the middle of assembly, when I was sitting silently watching the front, she points @ me, calls me out of my seat, & goes & tells me 2 sit on the floor, as if i'd committed the crime of the century! zomg...i was really pissed...& I was feeling tired & emotionally out of whack 2 cause i think everything inside me is going SWING SWING SWING right now...arg...y am i such an emotional boat @ this time of month?! & this teacher didn't make anything better...ah well..i'll let it slide...

 

I've generally kept 2 eating healthy over the past few days, so I'm happy w/ myself. The karate is also helping keep in shape, + it feels good while u do it as well as after  Again, I remind myself of gradings - on Tuesday nxt week! Eek! better practice...

 

Speaking of practice, I think I should definitely practice piano more - esp since I have 2 bloody play the piano 4 assembly on Friday - thnx Terri for that coin toss! lol i no it wasn't ur fault, but i still hold a grudge! lol jokes. I know it doesn't mean much 2 play in school, but still, I want the piece to reach a standard that I am satisfied with, which can't fully be achieved by Friday of course, but I want 2 have progressed by then, cause it's like helping me set a goal.

 

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just 2 days until bday & im still not excited...shame really. This was the birthday I've always wanted 2 reach, always aspired 2, always thought I would never even live until 16...& now that I'm here...there's no more of that. I don't care if I pass that goal I set so many years ago, & I feel like crying when i think about how excited i used 2 be @ the mere thought of becoming grown up, because I realise, there's nothing once you get there. I think the whole experience was ruined, when I realised that you don't just become a 16 year old - you grow into one, which takes away all the glory & surprise you thought you'd find when you got there.

 

It's sad really. But it's so true. & now that I'm here, I don't want to be 16 anymore. I want to go back - I want time to stop & just rewind. Because I miss that feeling of waiting.

 

Waiting for this day.

 

This day, which i can't face today

 

not tomorrow

 

not ever

 

& it's so sad that the one wish i long for can't be granted on that one special day

 

*sigh*

 

wow~ it feels so weird to blog.

 

Lemme c. I'll try making up for the days i've missed.

 

 

I hate my school for blocking various USEFUL sites - when I say useful I mean useful 2 ME! Consider my needs people!

 

 

I'm craving to watch that drama Yui recommended called Nodame Cantabile as well as read the manga, because apparently the story is about musicians @ a music college & this weird girl called Nodame who can't read music very well but has an excellent ear & picks all the songs up by ear ---> sound familiar any1? I want 2 convince dad that reading isn't everything...even if it is SLIGHTLY important...ahem...He said he'd download anything i wanted at the end of the month, so that bandwidth isn't used up during the month itself (he needs it 4 work). So I've just emailed him the torrents & he should be nice enough 2 download the 1st 2 eps...i hope...>.<

 

Birthday - 

 

Anna's & my b'day on Friday, although I'm really not that excited. I don't even want a sliver of a party anymore. I feel so like...who gives a crap?! Ahh well...I just want anna 2 b happy I suppose, cause most of my pressies have been given  2 me.

 

Piano Concert - 

 

The concert on Thursday - the one with Ashkenazy the pianist - was the most inspirational experience i think I've ever had. I loved it so much, & I am so thankful towards dad for getting the tickets, cause he also got the chance to see it. We were sitting in such a position that we could see his face clearly, & I think he even smiled at us! Another pianist - Alexey - played as well, & that was superb. We got 2 meet him in the intermission with my piano teacher, & he was like 'Yes! Yes! Yes!' to everything lol Afterwards we went to have drinks with my piano teacher's other student - Yuka & her mum Noriko - & Alexey's girlfriend's parent (whoa - even I got confused x.x). It was really nice @ the Opera House bar & no 1 noticed we were underage - even tho we didn't drink alcohol. I tried sparkling water for the first time - & was absolutely disgusted - much to Yuka's amusement. On my birthday she's going for her 7th Grade exam, & then on the 8th of December she's off to Japan - the lucky girl! Ahh~ but i love Yuka. She's such a nice person & a great pianist. So my birthday wish goes to her on the exam day. So we practically spent the rest of the night talking about the concert, talking about Yuka going 2 Japan, talking about how much Japanese I could speak - which eventually turned into a Japanese lesson lol It was fun, & I loved it ^.^

 

Food - 

 

I want to start eating healthier. I want 2 stop buying shit outside of the home. I want 2 stop binging on Coke. So i will. I'm trying not to diet, but 2 eat healthier substitutes, so that I don't get fat or anorexic - just right.

 

Karate - 

 

Next week is gradings on Tuesday, so I really have 2 keep practicing >.< i really wanna get that green belt. I dunno how my sis will do - I dunno if she can get up 2 brown belt this time. We shall c...

 

Photoshop -

 

As most of my contacts know & get disgusted by, I have been attempting photoshop. I know anna & angie are especially pleased with their altered photo - ahem - but ah...i wanna do every 1, just 2 c their reactions lol

 

this is the 1 I did of them:

 

 

lol i don think they appreciate it v. much - esp the difference in skin colour - look how tanned angie is!

 

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N e way...that's all for today. Now i wait for my birthday! i still dunno wut they're getting me, & am starting to suspect that Monica might be right in saying that they're getting me a bag of dung...